Thursday, January 20, 2011

I'm a big fan of this:

Ramblings about my day (1-19-11)

Well since we had a snow day yesterday, today officially started classes. And so it also started my real life. I had to run a bunch of on-campus errands, which is irrelevant, but I feel a need to point out how amazing my luck was.

The line in the mail room was something like 30 people long, and all I wanted to do was figure out how to get a new mail key, so I asked the girl that was next in line if I could just ask a question and she said yeah, so I asked the guy how to get a new room key. Then he had me fill out a paper, and said that would be my mail key for the next week until they got the copy made; and that if I needed to check my mail, to just hand that to the person at the counter. So I thought about it, and I was already standing at the counter, so I said "well, can I do it now?" and he said yeah. So even though I originally had no real intention of cutting all of those people in line, I did. Forgive me if you were one of them, but that honestly made my day. And then I ended up having fourteen books waiting for me, which was both ridiculous and awesome.

My classes were fine. I had my school observation class, capping (which I'm personally looking forward too), and a meeting about my American lit seminar, which I'm being forced to take outside the actual class time, but such is life. Then somehow I got roped into doing some ridiculously intense video work-out (INSANNNITTYTYYTYTYTY) and I literally copped out about 5-8minutes in, but even that was too much. I just want to take a ballet class! That's all I ask of the universe.

Then I did some cute RA stuff and now I'm sitting here wondering how on earth it could be midnight already. I feel like I have so much to do and the days just keep flying by. I guess that's the feeling of real life lol.

p.s. the soundtrack to this day was Borneo and Stoned Soul Picnic on repeat.

Monday, January 17, 2011

Since my last post I've read 330 more pages of Gone with the Wind, putting me at page 550 out of 1448 pages. What a book. So many things have happened within the last 330 pages I don't even know what to make my main focus. I'm particularly fascinated by the relationship between Scarlett and Rhett Butler, and as much as I dislike Scarlett as an individual character, I do like the idea of them together. They are essentially the same person except Scarlett tries to mask her ulterior motives and Rhett glorifies his.

For instance, there are numerous times throughout the text when some news about Ashley will arrive from the war, and Scarlett will have a severely emotional reaction because she's still "in love" with him. While these are happening, she lets Melanie keep assuming that she's still mourning over Charles's death when, in reality, she barely even remembers that they were married.

Rhett, on the other hand, is as blunt as they come. When I first started reading about Rhett I thought he just really didn't give a ****, but the more I become acquainted with him the more I think he really does care what people think about him. He needs to be the center of attention or he's a nobody. He's definitely not a gentlemen, and if not that than what? No, instead he uses his vanity to give himself power within the society of the South. By making himself into a spectacle he's still able to stay in the public eye even after he's been outcast by them.

Something else I find worth mentioning is the idea of what it means to be both a "lady" and a "gentleman" in Southern society before and during the civil war. The book goes in detail about certain acts, gestures, phrases, etc... that go into composing yourself into a lady or a gentleman. One of my favorites is what Ellen tells Scarlett to say when responding to marriage proposals: "Mr.______, I am not unaware of the honor you have bestowed on me in wanting me to become your wife, but this is all so sudden that I do not know what to say" (Mitchell 150). I want to expand on this, but not now. Maybe at a later date.

In terms of music, I'm in love with Laura Nyro. Wow. She is amazing.


and someone painted this amazing picture of her:

Classes start tomorrow, so hopefully I'll start having a flood of intelligent thoughts flow through my brain into my blog lol. See you then.

Tuesday, January 11, 2011

Gone with the Wind

I'm currently about 220 pages into Gone with the Wind and I cannot stop hating Scarlett O'Hara. She falls completely below my expectations. She's so boring and conceited and just largely unlikeable. Her only redeeming quality is that she doesn't really like acting "ladylike," so she has some appeal to the unconventional female, but then, she doesn't care about anything important. She just wants to live in a fairy tale where she lives happily ever after with the man of her dreams, and doesn't have to acknowledge the exterior world around her.

Then she stupidly marries Charles just because she's a pouty little girl who didn't get what she wanted. She didn't think at all about how it was actually going to affect her life until it was too late. Now she has a baby that she doesn't want and seemingly doesn't care about. I find it disappointing that she's the main character of this 1000+ page book because obviously this is a "great love story," so Scarlett has to get the guy in the end, or at least a guy, which means she somehow gets rewarded for being a selfish brat.

Honestly, now that I really think about it, I don't particularly like most of the characters. Gerald O'Hara serves some sort of comedic value, since I thought it was pretty funny when he basically told Scarlett, "Ashley doesn't love you, get over it." But then, he's equally as conceited as Scarlett. Ellen is okay, but she seems lifeless. Her whole life just revolves around solving other people's problems and she has no spark. I suppose this can partially be attributed to the culture of the south at the time. The north and south basically were two different countries in terms of their lifestyles and customs, but I also blame Ellen for marrying O'Hara when she knew she wouldn't be happy.

The only characters I've really come to like are Ashley and the Wilkses in general. They remind me of the Hickses from Edith Wharton's, Glimpses of the Moon. They care about things like education, reading, the arts, etc... which just makes them so much more likeable in my opinion.

I find the Tarleton twins most annoying; however, I do like Mrs. Tarleton, but she caved so badly with the horses. I guess she felt like if they were seriously at war than she might as well give them up to protect the south.

Anyway, I'm currently at the point in the novel where Scarlett has gone to Atlanta and realizes that since the war began Atlanta has become completely industrialized. I'm hoping Scarlett will redeem herself in part two, so we'll see.

In other news, I've recently been trying to not listen to the Grateful Dead every single second of my life and infuse some new, and old, music back into my life. For some reason, today I chose to listen to Incubus's A Crow Left of the Murder and it's amazing! I love this album because it reminds me of driving eight hours to Maine and listening to it on my Sony Walkman over and over and over. In fact, I'm already on my second time playing it through now lol.

My endorsement for the day: Now this is the best stuff on earth.

Monday, January 10, 2011

This is me.

Interested in music, literature, philosophy, education? So am I; therefore, this blog will seek to cover all of those things and more. Caitland will be a world all of my own, so comment when you're interested and don't when you're not. Hopefully I'll be able to create something interesting and worthwhile.

To give a small introduction, my name is Caitlin and I'm currently pursuing a degree in English literature and secondary education. I love to read and I'm obsessed with books. I'm also really interested in music, especially the Grateful Dead, and philosophy. I love to dance and choreograph my own pieces. I love to laugh and I have pretty broad sense of humor, but mostly it's pretty sick lol. Overall, I'm pretty quirky and I like to do my own thing.

Here's a picture of my younger brother and I that I'm currently obsessed with:

So this is me. Stay tuned for more.